I just want to be happy to get the most from my life..?

Sometimes we are hard pressed to understand why we have the hardships we do in life. Sorry for all your troubles. When I am depressed i stop myself and realize that there will always be others on this planet who are worse off. Very interesting what your manger observed about U. Use this as a way to change yourself for the better. Be a happy person, but not too happy. The word 'content' comes to mind. My husband is always telling me to watch out when I get too crazy happy, because the flip side of happiness is unhappiness. Even though I do not like it when he says this to me, I do understand what he is trying to say. We need to learn to balance out our emotions. Maybe that is kind of what your manger meant. I have a dear friend with cancer right now, so I have been doing a lot of reasearch on that subject and discovering all kinds of things. The most disturbing of which is that modern medicine does not what in the heck they are doing when it comes to treating cancer. If I was told I had cancer I would clean up my diet and study with alternative methods. I would also go back to the hands on healer who cured me of my arthritis. That was a miracle, and I'm sure he could heal cancer too.