Is this blasphemy of the holy spirit?

The other day I looked up blasphemy of the holy spirit cause I was that it was unforgivable. Well I got confused about it so I looked up examples of what it might be. I read about it and wondered if I ever committed it. It got stuck in my head and bad thoughts kept coming in my head. I did not mean to but I am one of those people when you say don't think about elephants I'm gonna think about them. lol. I did not mean anything and really love god. I was just wondering if it is you just really mean it that you can only commit it?